TCP Empowerment Camp

23rd - 25th September 2013 [ My first overnight camp at school + loft ]

I thought it was just a normal camp like any others but on a stricter side. Well, 'cause its kind of a scholars programme. I was awfully mistaken. And it turned out to be one of my favourite camps.

-----------------1st day-------------

0830 am reporting time.
Team Singapore ftw ~
Firstly, I was grateful for being in a mixed group.
D I S C and S E R V A N T  L E A D E R S H I P.

Im an 'I' : Interactive, Influential
Goal: Recognition/ Approval
Motivation: Recognition
Fears: Rejection/ Disapproval

What I remember most from the first day was Albatross and the talk from the head of Rohei, Ms Rachael - one inspiring leader who only had dreams as a florist & selling fruits as a small kid. Unlike other typical Singaporean kids who aspire to become doctors/scientists.

Oh I remembered the girls bringing back a ton of snacks from the 'kopitiam' to our loft.

----------------2nd day-------------
So the girls had heart-to-heart talks till maybe around 2am while eating macs yay!

First thing we learnt in the day was RESILIENCE (climber, camper, quitter)
Control
Ownership (dad story)
Reach
Endurance

And I really hate the paper bag game after that. I mean I understand the crisis of people who are having troubles overseas while Singaporeans take these things for granted. BUT I really hated the game haha. I was soon out of it all. The best thing though was that I had to go to the moneylender PAYMON. And I had to kneel.... wait for it.... and KISS HIS HAND. HAHA yikes I shouldn't be happy about that.

We went out for C A C. Cleaned tables at kopitiam, gave bread to rental flats, and talked to a foreign worker. It made me realise alot of things. Like how I was ashamed to share that my mom was a cleaner in the past.
[Eventually I did share it to everyone at camp. Like I was 'volunteered' to be one of two speakers for team Singapore. And I'm glad I shared it. My friends said that it was inspiring. And even mentors and camp director Sherman took notice of my courage to share it. I guess I conquered my fear of public speaking during camp. YAY ME]

And the last game was a real challenge for tcp camp 7. WE MANAGED TO CONQUER THE MOAT. I'll post a picture of the group later on. But omg I recalled having leg cramps because I was one of the first few to do the moat. We completed it after 6 hours and 22 minutes and 20 mulligans. That wasn't that bad though. Another camp did it for 8 hours and 36 mulligans. Haha but I loved it all.

Since there were alot of Is, everyone was optimistic at the start. And then was tension and frustration. And then V I C T O R Y. Haha we ended everything at 3 am.

---------------3rd day-------------

We had an amazing breakfast yay! Haha we almost couldn't wake up on that day. Woke up at 8.15am and everyone was rushing teehee. But wow the guys were later than us.

Initiation took place with the vice chairman (?). And there was a sharing by Reena - a trainer at Rohei who became completely blind overnight when she was 28.

And then LUNCH. And a short camp jamming session LOVED IT. And I loved blaine's original music!

There was a short skit at the end. Well, it made a lot of people tear up. It started as a comedy which turned into a sob story. My eyes resembled a waterfall haha.

That door to success. It is blocked by lies. Lies that people say of you. Lies that you believe.
I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH. I AM NOT CAPABLE. I AM ALONE. I AM A FAILURE. I really loved that skit.
And how Ian ended it off with a crushed $2 note. Even when crushed, you still want it because it has value. So reach out for your dream even when you are crushed gazillion times. Because the light at the end is worth the pain.
And we had M&M sessions and it was time to say our goodbyes :(
I went home with Zen and (N)elson haha they're awesome ok bye.

Ian, Justin, Fadli, Julian
Hosy, Vivian, Me, Zen
Joey, Claudia (Pei Si), Li Xuan, (N)elson, Bryan

And I made a youtube video too hehe. (unlisted)

A

 

29 August 2013. 

Time check 02:49am

I never really told anyone about it. I'm not talking about a same-age guy.
HIM. Older than me. A guy that I can depend on. A guy I happened to meet at work. 

From the start, I never really looked forward to working there. I changed from one department to another during the course of my work. And then I met A. I remembered my first impression: weird, not someone to talk to.

After awhile, A became like a brother.
- Short story inserted here - 
So there's this another guy who was 19 and I kinda liked him. He was only there for cny period and he was gone after that. I forgot his name though. He was so nice and it was nice talking to him while it lasted.
A kept asking if I liked him. Quote "your eyes were sparkling like the stars when you talk to him" in his awkward english. In my mind: A actually observed me alot. Interesting.

Soon, A became more touchy feely. He was calling me beautiful and pretty. I would go crazy and blush at those words. You don't know how rare it is for a guy to call me that. Common words to describe me would be cute and bubbly. But girls, don't you just love it when guys call you beautiful. A also loved it when I said he was handsome. Just that smile on his face. And god his dimples.

I recalled that one day A greeted me with a simple "good morning my beautiful girl''. I swear my heart fluttered. Even the other co-workers think that he is treating me well. A little too well. One cashier asked if he liked me haha.

And the messages that we exchanged in the past. There was a period of time when I didn't come to work as often due to school. And then A would text that he misses me. It was only like a week or two that I didn't come. And when I finally came back to work, the first thing A would ask was whether I had missed him. Truthfully, yes. But obviously I would never say that.

His presence seriously lights up my world. A never fails to make me smile. When I was feeling down because of my grandma, he tried his best to put a smile to my face. When she passed on, I felt really lost. After mourning the loss, I came back to work with a heavy heart. And A knew that something was off. I was always the bubbly type but that day I just had no mood to show a happy side. When I greeted him, I just opened my arms without thinking and walked towards him. We hugged. It was the most comforting thing ever. A said 'she will be okay'. He spent the whole day trying to make me happy. I was so grateful for that.

When it comes to communication, I rather text. But A he likes to call me. Saying that he likes to hear my voice lol. And also because there's a physical barrier in communication if he text me. Not that his english is bad, in fact he's better than the rest.

That idiot gets upset when I don't start conversations. Apparently, according to me the girls should get it going first. Just call me if you missed me idiot.

WGM

28 August 2013

I was watching We Got Married episode 165 and I realised a few things. Personally, I loved Sunhee couple because they are different from the rest. Well, since they started off as close friends and not total strangers. I sensed that Kwanghee may have real feelings towards her. I felt so touched when he put together all their pictures from the past episodes into a gallery-like space. That episode Sunhwa cried because she felt as though she was always at the receiving end. Yet, Kwanghee didn't expect anything back from Sunhwa and only wanted her honest feelings.

And then we have the jungin couple who is a real-life couple for 11 years. Its great to have a real couple appear on the show because they can easily express their love for one another lol. Jungchi seemed like my type of guy haha. I want an innocent guy who doesn't appear popular. I want him all to myself haha. And a guy who has music as an integral part of his life. And oh my I really think guys look handsome when they're hard at work (ahem music recordings and stuff). Playing well with kids is a plus. In my opinion, I don't really go for 'handsome' guys because the personality matters more to me.